Inadaquacies

We all have areas we feel we fall short; it's only human nature. But what if you feel inadequate with the thing you're supposed to do best? I'm supposed to be a writer, but at times, I feel I fall so short of the mark. I want to be one of those writers whose words leap from the paper, paint a picture, draw a reader in and leave them begging for more. I find myself lusting after the words and phrases of other writers, better writers, longing to be as effective with the written word as they are. I've heard of envying another for their looks, their money, their possessions, but who knew there could talent envy?

I study the way other people write. I read certain journalists, certain authors regularly, and I try to take cues from them. I certainly don't want to thieve someone else's style, but I hope to take elements from those I admire and create my own. I long for a writing style, one that's all my own, one that people can recognize as Mary's signature writing voice. And then I want people to crave my words like I crave the words of those whom I think have figured it out. I want you to love my words as much as I do.